what are you feeling right now
i can see something has come over you
especially in your silence
or is it i
am i feeling something
i can’t say that i am
so, i’m saying that i’m not
maybe that’s the problem
i am intrigued to hear your past, present and future
i feel honored in catching a glimpse of your life
yet, i’m not imagining us sinking in the depths of devotion
or something equally mentally blissful
sparked on first interactions

i’m still mustering infatuation

our first moment wasn’t enough to hold your hand

i don’t want you to leave with a false sense of togetherness
there must be something wrong with me
if that’s what i’m discussing in my head with the voices

i do feel and catalog every emotion and thought
i get lost comparing our personalities
pushing any and all chemistry
filling silent moments the best i can
all the while being honest and aware of natural factors that can be detrimental

i am indeed human with the primal urge to mate
unwilling to compromise with someone not meant for me
i’ve wasted enough time on scams and the desperate
those who steal romance for a night and disappear
and those who try to trap it

i want the “one”
the fairy tale that has disintegrated
i won’t take anything less
loneliness is a lovely alternative
i’ll just have to find things to do with my time
like a bum